I feel a great emptiness building up inside me that neither friendship nor study can fill. I don't know who will fill it. Will it be God, or a creature?

If it's a creature, I pray that it won't show up until I've made myself worthy of it. I pray that it will bring with it just enough outward charm to leave no room for regret.

But I pray above all that she will come with an excellent soul, that she will bring great virtue, that she will be worth much more than I am, that she will draw me up, that she will not bring me down, that she will be generous because I am often the only one who is worthy of her.Let her be fervent, because I am lukewarm in the things of God. Let her be compassionate, so that I don't have to be ashamed before her of my inferiority.

Don't abandon me, Lord, make me loved. As you know, it's not only gentleness that I seek in Love, it's contempt for every wound, it's the strength to fight for the Good, for the True. Amen"